JitterDay tripping

>>>JitterDay tripping

“Excuse me,” I said politely to the tiny, scowling lady walking past, “Would you mind grabbing a package of dental floss for me?”

Stores don’t really consider wheelchairs when they set up their displays. The floss was all the way on the top shelf, far above my reach when seated in the wheelchair. I would have stood, but the Kaiserbeast struck again: The loaner wheelchair they gave me doesn’t have very good brakes.

No matter; people are generally helpful. My tiny lady picked out a package of floss and handed it to me, then giggled.

“This is the first time in my entire life that I got to be the TALL one!” We laughed together, and she strutted down the aisle, smiling.

The dental floss she gave me proclaimed, “Extra Comfort,” strangely appropriate. Today is officially a JitterDay, the day before my bone growth check-in. I’m usually a grouchy basket case by the end of it.

Tomorrow (Thursday) I get my 6-week post-op checkup. It’s the first time x-rays might show whether my pain and fighting and money and skill and faith have kickstarted real growth in my busted femur, so it’s a pretty big deal.

If there’s growth, Dr. Dan will tell me to start putting weight on The Leg, forcing accelerated strengthening and growth. We’ll begin the long, blessed road to walking on my own.

If, however, the x-rays reveal a femoral deadzone, I’ll get that dad-dratted look of compassion–or maybe pity–from doctors, nurses, and whoever else happens to know my story.

“It’s still very early days, Cynthia,” they’ll say reassuringly, doubt shining in their eyes, “Let’s give it another month.”

Sigh. I’ve been playing the “another month” game for 13 months, which means I’ve had a bunch of JitterDays. I think they’ve now topped IRS audits in the pantheon of tough days.

When the going gets tough, the tough…go shopping. Right?

Yup. And that’s what I did today. The Court, the assisted living facility where I’m staying until the docs let me fly home to Portland, will transport its residents to appointments, church, the library, and shopping trips.

Normally, if you need something at The Court, you tell the front desk, and they go buy it for you and bring it to your room. This time, though, I also needed access to an ATM, so they suggested I sign up for the afternoon CVS field trip.

It was (apparently) badly overdue and the best thing I could have possibly done. I needed the fresh air, the sunshine, and a big change of scenery. A CVS doesn’t exactly sound like an exciting getaway, but today, it made all the difference.

Sally, The Court’s bus driver, loaded four of us in–I was the only one in a wheelchair, the rest are all ambulatory. (I call that “naturally mobile;” at the moment I’m “artificially mobile.”)

We laughed, we joked, we told stories, laughed more. I picked up a few things, replenished my cash at the ATM, played a few rounds of Pokemon Go…but mostly just reveled in being outside for non-medical purposes for the first time in ages.

Tomorrow I get to find out if I’ll ever again see a trip to the drugstore as a mundane, even tiresome, chore. For now, though, my ladies and I reveled in the bliss of freedom and boxes of dental floss.



  1. Diana tillotson December 1, 2017 at 8:47 pm - Reply

    Prayers, fingers crossed, prayers again that the darn bone is growing. Glad you could out for a day.

  2. Joyce December 1, 2017 at 11:09 am - Reply

    I am so very happy for you today. It is truly a joyous season. And a time for tears of great thankfulness. You keep spinning those wheels to natural motion.

  3. Mary Kay Nitchie November 30, 2017 at 9:26 am - Reply

    Thinking about you today, and hoping for the best!

  4. Valerie Adams November 30, 2017 at 9:03 am - Reply

    Can’t wait to hear the good news today!!!

  5. Island Fused Glass November 30, 2017 at 7:46 am - Reply

    Today is the day, I hope the xrays are early this morning and followed by one or more grinning doctors. Good luck.

  6. Nancy_de November 30, 2017 at 7:14 am - Reply

    Your determination alone should be enough to achieve success. Wishing, praying for a hopeful outcome tomorrow.

  7. Gail Northness November 30, 2017 at 7:09 am - Reply

    I am so hopeful for you, and yet tense at the same time. I know you have the strength and forbearance to handle whatever the outcome today is. Thank you for sharing your journey, I look forward to hopefully good news. Keep flossing! (I am a dental hygienist)

  8. Judith November 30, 2017 at 6:18 am - Reply

    Thinking of you, and hoping, hoping, hoping that the doctors and nurses all are smiling broadly when the xrays are read.

  9. cjgates45 November 30, 2017 at 6:00 am - Reply

    Best wishes for a healthy outcome, tomorrow!

  10. SB November 30, 2017 at 5:51 am - Reply

    Fingers crossed for you!
    Your writing is so filled with humor, grace, and humanity. It is a joy to read. (even when the situations may not be exactly joyful).

  11. Colleen Bell November 30, 2017 at 5:11 am - Reply

    Fingers crossed with prayers that the doctors have the news you are waiting for!

  12. carenashfordaren November 29, 2017 at 10:47 pm - Reply

    getting there, great..hope tomorrow goes well

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